Tag Archives: Mother’s Day

A note to my mom

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My beautiful mommy! How I miss her so!

My beautiful mommy! How I miss her so!

 

Mom,

You were the first person to love me. My heart and yours beat together for nine months.

You were my role model in life. You taught me how to love and be loved. You made me realize that it was okay to want more and reach for my goals.

You encouraged me, you believed in me.

You taught me how to be a mom. To show Stormy unconditional love. I will give her the strength to know that whatever she wants in life, she can achieve. I can teach her all those things, because you taught them to me.

When a boy breaks her heart, I will be able to comfort her, because you comforted me when my heart was broken.

I will stand up for her, like you did for me. I will do my best to show her how awesome you were by being the best mom I can to her.

If I had just one wish in this entire world it would be to hug you close and tell you how much I love you; how grateful and blessed I was to have you as my mother.

I love and miss you momma, happy Mother’s Day

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The First One Without Her

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Me and mom

Me and mom

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It will be the first Mother’s Day without my mom. She died last September 9th, the day after what would have been her and my father’s 45th wedding anniversary if he hadn’t passed in 2009.

On one hand it seems like she has only been gone a moment and on another it feels like she has been gone forever. I don’t think my 3 year old daughter remembers her that much anymore. It makes me sad to think that she won’t remember the endless amount of love that my mother had for her. I try to talk about her when I can but that is hard. Talking about her reminds me that I will never be able to put my arms around her and hold her close again. My heart breaks.

My mother was my very best friend. She was smart and funny and strong oh my was my mother strong, both physically and emotionally.

As I sit here I am trying to remember a “just” me and mom story and I am reminded of a time when I was just maybe 9 or 10 years old and mom had a gym membership.

Looking back can’t help but wonder why she even had the membership she was always so fit. I don’t remember her ever being overweight. But she had the membership and my dad used to drop us off at the gym and she and I would go in get changed and then go play racquetball.

We weren’t very good at it but we had fun playing, plus we got our exercise in.

Afterward we would go to this little bar inside the gym and get a fruity drink. It is pretty much what is called smoothies these days but back then in 80’s they were just icy fruit drinks.

When we were done daddy would be waiting for us outside in the station wagon. We always had a station wagon or a white van, lol!

I have no idea what those afternoon racquetball games were about. We didn’t go long. A few months was all maybe. But I loved that time with my mom. It was just us girls. And I had forgotten all about it until I sat here to write today.

Everyone says life is short but we never seem to realize it until we begin to lose the people closest to us.

Mommy in Heaven, I love you so much. I miss you every day. I dreamed about you a few days ago and in my dream I was hugging you. It felt so real that I didn’t want to wake up. Enjoy your Mother’s Day in Heaven and I will see you again one day!